Well, enough with the quotations marks: Today, I'm taking the power back on my time, my health, and my life.
How do I know this time is different?
Because I'm starting today--on a Friday. In the past, I would wait for a Monday. In the past, I would wait for the first day of the month. In the past, I would wait for January. No more waiting: This starts now.
But why today?
There's nothing particularly special about today, but I found myself driving into the Cincinnati office thinking about things I needed to accomplish. Some of them were simple tasks I've been putting off for far too long. I found myself making excuses to imaginary complaints--making excuses to myself--about why it's taken so long.
I'm an overachiever, but that's only because I overload myself. One result is that I often feel like I'm strapped for time and underperforming for my super high goals. Another result is that I feel like I'm reacting to situations, instead of being as proactive as I'd like to be. But it's not just about time management...
Three years ago, I started to let my health slide. I've had some ups and downs since, though mostly downs (which means my health has gone down and my weight has gone up). Three Octobers ago, I weighed 190 pounds; this morning, I weighed 250--for the first time ever.
If I continue down this path, I'm surely looking at diabetes, heart problems, and possibly death. I mean, after nearly dying in May of 2009, I should know better right. And technically I have "known" better, but I have "felt it"--not until today.
What am I going to do?
Whenever I teach others to do anything, I usually have two main pieces of advice (in addition to the more specific tips):
- Start slow and build over time.
- Start now.
First step, I'm going through the process of identifying what's wrong, acknowledging it's wrong, and then taking proactive steps to improve the situation. I've identified problems above. I'm making a list of everything (from paying bills to leading den meetings and playing fantasy football) that occupies my time. Then, I'm going to go through that list and consider how I can do it better--or maybe eliminate it from my list.
Second step, I'm replacing soda pop (and all flavored drinks) with water. For me, soda pop is like coffee, alcohol, or cigarettes. It's my crutch when times are tough or complicated. I feel a physical and psychological dependence. I'm breaking that dependence starting today.
Third step, I'm going to make time for exercising each day. Even if it's just a 20-minute walk around the neighborhood, I'm going to exercise, and I'm going to do it every day.
Fourth step, I'm going to document my progress here. Since I'm getting started on a Friday, I guess I'll shoot to have a new post up every Friday.
I'm usually so good about sharing the good side of my life: my poetry, my editing, my blogging, etc. But I don't usually share my bad times and struggles. That is one more thing I'm going to change starting now. Not that I'm going to be all negative or focused on the bad.
Rather, I'm going to start sharing from the low point, the point at which I feel like I can't take it anymore, and I'm going to share what I hope is a positive transforming experience. Hopefully, it will be inspirational for everybody involved: for people who read it and for me.
And I'm not going to judge anyone who's struggling, because I'm here at the crossroads of where I don't want to be and making a positive change. I know full well that it's not something someone else can make me do; in fact, I've often used people's comments about my health as an excuse to plunge deeper into the abyss. So no judging.
Also, no time tables, no weight goals, no pass/fail benchmarks. I want to improve my life by taking the power back. And I'm starting today.